All of my friends and some of my family know that I'm going to return to Whitchurch. One friend even tried to talk me out of the move which didn't surprise me, it didn't work, bless him.

I am still going to go home, it's the only thing that's keeping me going at the moment.

I am going to have to rent a flat in Whitchurch as to buy is out of the question, the property prices in Whitchurch have always been right out of my league. I'm going to have to come off of the property ladder and may never get back on it, at least I won't have a mortgage or the upkeep of the flat to worry about.

After Christmas and the New Year, I am going to contact Bushnell Porter, they are a local estate agent with an office in Totton and get them to come and value the flat, I will also try and get an idea of how long it'll take to sell the flat, once I know all of that, the flat will then go onto the market and then my journey home will start.

I've spoken to Mum and Dad about this at length, they're still not keen on me selling up, but they've said and still say that "you do what you have to do". Their main worry is that I'm coming off of the property ladder and that I may never get back on it again. I understand their worry as it does concern me to a degree too.

I know Dad will help me to move back, I spoke to my brother recently about my intended move and he said that he will help Dad and me which is great and does put my mind at rest on that score.

Mum, bless her seems to think that I'm living in a bubble and that it's the memories that are taking me back. They're not. I did explain to her that I'm really not happy down here, that I've never settled. Even though I've got friends and family down here, Whitchurch is my home, here isn't and never was. Your home is where your heart is and I left mine in Whitchurch nearly 17 years ago.

Mum then said that it won't be the same and I replied that I know all of that. Times change, people change and that Whitchurch will have evolved. I know all of this, and am ready for all of that.
Jeez we're talking nearly 17 years since my heart was broken. But I am going home, I have to.